It's hard to believe that it's already been a week since G passed away. I already miss her so much, and in some ways, I keep hoping that this is all just a dream and that I'll eventually wake up and she'll still be here.
The last two weeks of G's life were rough {and got rougher every day as her health declined}, but the time that I spent with her is something that I'll always cherish. I spent every evening after work at her house and as much of my weekends over there as I could. I held her hand, I told her that I loved her {over and over and over again}, and I scratched her back while singing the songs to her that she used to sing to us when we were little.

G and me holding hands on Saturday, August 11th
Sunday, the last day that I was with her, was the first day that she was completely unresponsive, but even though she didn't move at all that day and was no longer able to hold my hand, I knew that she could hear me. I laid in bed with her and played some of her favorite songs on my phone, and I could tell that she was listening by the way that her breathing would soften. That night when I left, I told G that I was going home to go to sleep and that I'd see her tomorrow but that if I didn't that was okay, too. As hard as it was for me to admit it, I had said goodbye, and I was ready for her to go to Heaven.
G passed away peacefully in her sleep and in the comfort of her own bed that next afternoon, which was last Monday, August 13th. We decided to have her visitation on Friday evening and her memorial service on Saturday morning and spent the entire week preparing for both. Thankfully, G had already prearranged almost everything with the funeral home and left us lots of handwritten notes on what she would like included in her memorial service. We found a list of her favorite hymns, and from that list, we decided to include "How Great Thou Art", "Because He Lives", and "Hymn of Promise" as a part of the service. We also found a sheet where she had written out the lyrics to "What a Wonderful World" by Louie Armstrong and decided to include that song in the slideshow that Audrey, Holly, and I put together as well as a song called "Live Like That" by Sidewalk Prophets that I heard a few times on the radio while driving back and forth to G's house over the past couple of weeks and brought tears to my eyes each time. In addition to the songs, we also found the name of the violinist that she wanted to play during the service. This particular violinist had played as part of a full orchestra at her church a few years ago, and she had enjoyed his music so much that she saved every program that he was in {with his name circled} and even asked him after one of the services if he would consider playing at her funeral. We had no idea how to go about finding this guy, but thankfully Holly was able to find his number online and called him up. He ended up being a really, really nice guy who said that he was honored to play at her service, and his music was beautiful.
Overall, the service went well. Pastor Jim did a great job retelling the stories of G's life with just enough humor to keep us from crying the entire time, and the scripture that we chose to include was so fitting since it was the one that she read everyday before going to work -- Proverbs 3:1-6.
My son, never forget the things I've taught you. If you want a long and
satisfying life, closely follow my instructions. Never forget to
be truthful and kind. Hold these virtues tightly. Write them deep
within your heart. If you want favor with both God and man, and a
reputation for good judgment and common sense, then trust the Lord
completely; don't ever trust yourself. In everything you do, put
God first, and he will direct you and crown your efforts with success.
I never imagined what my life would be like without G, and I'll be honest -- I don't like it. She was one of my best friends, and I really miss her, but it helps to remember that she is with the Lord and is in good hands. As I told Maureen {her really sweet hospice nurse}, G wasn't just a wonderful woman; she was the BEST. And she always will be.